all messed up

ujian mematangkn kehidupan..

tetapi..adakah saya matang menghadapi ujian2 tersebut?

jiwa..

akn tenang bila dekat dgn penciptanya..

bila jiwa tidak tenang..

adakah jiwa ini telah berada jauh dgn Penciptanya?

sedeyh .. sayu.. kecewa..

adakah perasaan sebegini ptot ada jika seorg hmba itu seorg yg penyabar?

sabar dan redha menghadapi segala ujian dariNYA?

"setiap bencana yg menImpa di bumi dan yg menimpa dirimu sendiri semunya t'tulis dlm kitab (LUH MAHFUZ) sebelum kami mewujudkannya.sugguh yg demikian itu mudah bg ALLAH..

Agar kamu tdk bersedih hati t'hadap apa yg diberikn-Nya kpdmu. Dan ALLAH tdk menyukai org yg smbong dan m'banggakn diri,"

(al-Hadid ayt 22-23)

jgn bersedih bila diuji..

instead ingtlah ALLAH byk2..ok?

selamat hari lahir ya RASULULLAH..habbiballah..

sempena maulidur rasul..jom kita selawat byk2 ke atas junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.

(especially wanita..selawatlah byk2 untk Nabi kita tanda terima kasih kita kerana bagindalah yg mengangkat martabat wanita)

Alhamdulillah..tahun ini sy dpt merasa sambutan maulidur rasul di Mlaysia..

klu kt Mesir..byk program yg akn di atur oeh PCI untk smbutan maulidur Rasul..

tp kt rumah xde program mcm kt Mesir

hanya berada di rumah..tgk rancangan2 tv yg berkait dgn maulidur rasul..

Alhamdulillah nasib baiklah ada rncangan halaqah

tajuk Hlaqah malam ni best sgt2 iaitu 'wasiat terakhir nabi'

sgt menyentuh hati sy dan adk2..

sama2 dk dpn tv..sama2 hayati..

ni copy paste from iluvislam

Khutbah ini disampaikan pada 9hb Zulhijjah, tahun 10 Hijriah di Lembah Uranah, Gunung Arafah :

"Wahai manusia, dengarlah baik-baik apa yang hendak kukatakan, Aku tidak mengetahui apakah aku dapat bertemu lagi dengan kamu semua selepas tahun ini. Oleh itu dengarlah dengan telti kata-kataku ini dan sampaikanlah ia kepada orang-orang yang tidak dapat hadir disini pada hari ini.

Wahai manusia, sepertimana kamu menganggap bulan ini dan Kota ini sebagai suci, maka anggaplah jiwa dan harta setiap orang Muslim sebagai amanah suci.Kembalikan harta yang diamanahkan kepada kamu kepada pemiliknya yang berhak.Janganlah kamu sakiti sesiapapun agar orang lain tidak menyakiti kami lagi. Ingatlah bahawa sesungguhnya, kamu akan menemui Tuhan kamu dan Dia pasti membuat perhitungan diatas segala amalan kamu. Allah telah mengharamkan riba, oleh itu segala urusan yang melibatkan riba dibatalkan sekarang.

Berwaspadalah terhadap syaitan demi keselamatan agama kamu. Dia telah berputus asa untuk menyesatkan kamu dalam perkara-perkara besar, maka berjaga-jagalah supaya kamu tidak mengikuti dalam perkara-perkara kecil.

Wahai Manusia Sebagaimana kamu mempunyai hak atas isteri kamu mereka juga mempunyai hak di atas kamu. Sekiranya mereka menyempurnakan hak mereka keatas kamu, maka mereka, juga berhak untuk diberi makan dan pakaian dalam Susana kasih sayang. Layanilah wanita-wanita kamu dengan baik dan berlemah-lembutlah terhadap mereka kerana sesungguhnya mereka adalah teman dan pembantu kamu yang setia. Dan hak kamu atas mereka ialah mereka sama sekali tidak boleh memasukkan orang yang kamu tidak sukai kedalam rumah kamu dan dilarang melakukan zina.

Wahai Manusia, dengarlah bersungguh-sungguh kata-kataku ini, sembahlah Allah, dirikanlah sembahyang lima kali sehari, berpuasalah di bulan Ramadhan, dan tunaikankanlah zakat dari harta kekayaan kamu. Kerjakanlah Ibadah Haji sekiranya kamu mampu. Ketahui bahawa setiap Muslim adalah saudara kepada Muslim yang lain. Kamu semua adalah sama; tidak seorang pun yang lebih mulia dari yang lainnya kecuali dalam Taqwa dan beramal saleh.

Ingatlah, bahawa, kamu akan menghadap Allah pada suatu hari untuk dipertanggung jawabkan diatas segala apa yang telah kamu kerjakan. Oleh itu Awasilah agar jangan sekali-kali kamu terkeluar dari landasan kebenaran selepas ketiadaaku.

Wahai Manusia, tidak ada lagi Nabi atau Rasul yang akan datang selepasku dan tidak akan ada lain agama baru. Oleh itu wahai manusia, nilailah dengan betul dan fahamilah kata-kataku yang telah aku sampaikan kepada kamu. Sesungguhnya aku tinggalkan kepada kamu dua perkara yang sekiranya kamu berpegang teguh dan mengikuti kedua-duanya, necaya kamu tidak akan tersesat selama-lamanya. Itulah ALQURAN dan SUNNAHKU.

Hendaklah orang-orang yang mendengar ucapanku, menyampaikan pula kepada orang lain. Semoga yang terakhir lebih memahami kata-kataku dari mereka yang terus mendengar dariku. Saksikanlah Ya Allah, bahawasanya telah aku sampaikan risalahMu kepada hamba-hambaMU.

farewell party~hepatobiliary unit..

Proffesor2 dan Resident2

Dr.Said Kayal, Head of Department

Dr. Usama Deeb (he want us to call him Usama breast)subspecialty in breast surgery

pejam celik pejam celik..

dh 8 mggu kami berada di unit pembedahan hati dan hempedu(hepatobiliary surgery unit)..

terasa berat hati untk mengglkn prof2 and doc2 yg bertungkus lumus mengajar kami dan melayan kerenah kami spnjng 8 mggu tesebut..

semakin hari semakin terasa layanan yg profesor dan doctor resident berikan terlalu istimewa berbnding dgn pelajar2 arab yg lain..

mereka tdk lokek dgn ilmu dan pengalamn mereka..

mereka sggup ulang byk kali if kitorang tak phm sesuatu tajuk..

kagum dgn semangat dan ketekunan mereka dan comitment mereka dgn kerja mereka..

even gaji doc kt egypt xdelah lumayan berbnding dgn doc m'sia..

(gaji specialist dlm LE1,100 je..tu specialist..klu doc HO or MO..xsmpai 1000 kot)

tp mereka pntingkn ilmu dr segala-galanya.

sy tekejut bila tgk the most skillful surgeon in our departmen gna kereta yg xlah berapa mewah..

humble je kn?

even most of our profs graduated from oversea..

and ade pengalamn keja di negara yg maju..

tp sbb semangt patriotik dan semangt untk tlg rkyat negara sndiri..

mereka balik berkhidmat untk negara sndiri..

kagum sgt..

plus diorg hafal Quran and ambik dalil Quran untk aplikasikn dlm ilmu medic..

sy rs mereka sgt hebat..

boleh ke sy jd hebat mcm diorg?

iAllah..

macho ke mcm tu?

sy tertarik bila terbaca cerita ni..

beruntunglah sesapa yg cuba mempraktikkan sunnah Rasulullah S.A.W

so the story begins..

Last week my sister called. She has been studying abroad since summer began, so naturally I was thrilled to hear from her. After hearing how she was, I asked about her new home. With her living in a Muslim country, I felt assured that everything would be fine. For that reason, what she described next was a complete shock. She began to describe a place where a girl can hardly leave her house without being verbally harassed by men walking by. She said that the catcalling was no longer the exception; it had become the rule. Then she told me about a Muslim girl she knew. The girl was riding in a taxi and when she arrived at her stop, she handed the driver his money. In many of these countries there are no strict meters, and since the fare is somewhat arbitrary, the driver became angry. Eventually the altercation escalated to such a degree that the driver grabbed the girl by the shoulders and began to shake her. At this, the girl became angry and insulted the driver. The driver then punched the young woman in the face.

At this point, I was extremely disturbed. But it was what my sister said next that was most devastating. Nearby, there was a group of men who saw what was happening, and rushed to the scene. Naturally they came to help the girl.

No. They stood and watched.

It was at this point in the story that I began to wonder. Suddenly I found myself questioning every definition of masculinity I had ever believed in. I wondered how a man — not one, but many — can stand and watch a woman be abused, and do absolutely nothing about it. It made me question what ideals define what it means to be a man in today’s society. Had the definition of masculinity become so distorted as to be reduced to just unbridled sex drive? Had the image of the ‘knight in shining armor’ really been replaced by visions of macho, catcalling boys in the street?

Most of all, it got me thinking about what it means to be a Muslim man today. I wondered if our dominate definitions as Muslims are really what they should be. Today, a man is expected to be stoic, unemotional, inexpressive, tough, and unbending. Physical aggression is glorified and emotional expressiveness ridiculed. I then decided to examine the epitome of what it means to be a man. I decided to look at the Prophet ﷺ.

One of the most common definitions of manhood today is the lack of emotional expressiveness. It is almost universally believed that to cry is ‘unmanly’ and weak. And yet the Prophet ﷺ described it very differently. When the Prophet ﷺ was handed his daughter’s son who was dying, his eyes flooded with tears. His companion Sa`d then told him, “What is this, Prophet of God?” He ﷺ said, “This is a mercy that the Almighty has made in the hearts of His servants. And surely God has mercy to the merciful ones among His servants.” [Bukhari]

But today, a man is not only expected to hide feelings of sadness, he is taught early on that even other emotions are not to be expressed. During the time of the Prophet ﷺ, there were some men who believed the same. Once while a villager was present, Prophet Muhammad ﷺ kissed his grandsons on the forehead. At that, the villager said with surprise, “I have ten children. I have never kissed any of them!” Prophet Muhammad ﷺ looked at him and said, “He who does not have mercy will not have mercy upon him.” [Bukhari] In fact, with regards to showing affection, the Prophet ﷺ was very clear. He said: “If a man loves his brother in faith, he should tell him that he loves him.”[Abu Dawud]

The Prophet ﷺ used to also show a great deal of affection towards his wives. Aisha reported that the Prophet ﷺwould only enjoy his meals when she would sit next to him. They would drink from one cup and he would watch where Aisha would place her lips on the cup so that he could place his lips on the exact position. He would eat from a bone after she would eat from it, placing his mouth where she had eaten. [Muslim] (wahh,..romanticnya Nabi kita kn?)

The Prophet ﷺ used to also help around the house, contrary to another widely held myth of masculinity. Aisha reported, “The Prophet Muhammad ﷺ used to stitch his clothes, milk the goats and help in the chores inside the house.” [Bukhari & Muslim] (memasak bkn keja bini je ok?)

But, perhaps one of the most common myths of what a man should be is the idea that a man should be ‘tough.’ Gentleness is widely considered only a feminine trait. And yet the Prophet Muhammad ﷺ said: “Allah is gentle and loves gentleness. He gives for gentleness what He does not give for harshness, nor for anything else.” [Muslim] In another hadith, he says, “He who is deprived of gentleness is deprived of good.” [Muslim]

And yet so much of that gentleness has been lost from our modern definition of masculinity. It is frightening when a boy can consider it manly to sexually harass a woman on the street, but consider it no question of his manhood to stand and watch while a girl is being hit. It makes you wonder if maybe our image of what is ‘manly’ in fact resembles a Hollywood gangster more than it does our beloved Prophet.

...walk away....

- i should really understand those' signs' -

signs when sumone wants to walk away from u

i have my mom to hear my stories

i have her ear to listen to my every single words

i have her shoulder to lean on

i have her heart to understand my feeling

i have her hand to wipe off my tears

i have HER

i shouldn't need anyone else

i shouldn't believe anyone else

i should love her with all my heart

rather than anyone else

ok..sekian

mati itu pasti!

Berita pelajar meniggal dunia(link)

"org yg plg bijak adalah org yg mengingati mati"

hari ini..

seluruh warga alex dikejutkn dgn berita kematian seorg student 3rd year..

sbb CO poisoning...

bila dgr berita ni..

hati terpikir..

yaALLAH..

bila2 ms sj maut itu akn dtg..

xlewat atau cepat even sesaat pn...

‎"Dan setiap ummat mempunyai ajal, apabila tiba ajalnya,

maka tidak dapat ditundakan ataupun disegerakan walau sesaatpun" (al-'Aaraf:34)

ms tgh kepoh2 dgr berita ni

ada kwn sy menyampuk..

kita merancang untk buat mcm2 dlm hidup ni..

tp tiba2?tdo..x bgn2 esok hrnya?

penah x merancang untk akhirat jgak?

hati tersentuh..

terasa dkat mati itu..

bersediakah aku nnti?

untk bertemu Rabbul 'Aalamin kelak?

dlm klas hr ni pn mud sy trus hilang..

xth knp..terpikir psl mati or PMS?

entah...

smpai ad yg tgo..

"knp kamu ni..nmpk murung je?"

- kita boleh menghitung usia yg kita habiskn..

tetapi bolehkah kita hitung brapa lama lg usia kita yg tggl?-

mungkinkah ini peringatan yg ALLAH ingin smpaikn kpd kami?

life is suck?

life is suck..

buruk kn?

wat if u change the word into life is beautiful?

comey kn?

act..u urself choose whether u want ur life to be suck or beautiful..

u want to live in a dark side or in a bright side..

it's all depend on your choice..

u yourself shape ur life..

there is always a right way and a wrong way to do things in life

so CHOOSE!

“….Sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum itu sehingga

mereka sendiri mengubah nasib mereka….” (Ar-Ra’du:11)

but bear in mind that..

watever hardness u have to go through..

and you feel like u can't endure it anymore..

remember that Allah is always there whenever u need Him..

put ur hope only in Allah..

knp sy ckp mcm ni?

b'cause actually i've made a sort of experimant today..

hr ni agk down..

bgn kol 3 pg but have done nothing..

just opened the book...

but my mind is still wandering somewhere else..

smpai la 4 jam..

and have to go to class..

so before gi klas i've decide to stop thinking yg bkn2..

and takes everythng which will going to happen to today in a positive way..

and it works!

so i think klu ade org ckp life is suck..

org tu yg men'suck'kn hidup mereka..

life is act is not suck at all..

if u think dat everythng happens to you..

have a certain purpose..

He taught u in a unique way..

but the outcome doesn't appear in the first place..

wat comes first is the hardness..

so watever happens..there'll be silver lining always..

"it's not wat happen to us,but wat matters the most

is how we respond to wat happen to us"

haha..

apekah sy merepek?

new

bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim..

thn baru..

so azam baru..

and blog baru..