The Quran is an immense treasure meant to guide us through darkness like the stars guide travelers of the desert..

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

ALLAH..ALLAH..ALLAH..

ya ALLAH..
ak mohon padamu kuatkanlah hatiku ya Allah..
untuk menghadapi segala dugaanMU dgn penuh kesabaran..
ku pohon yaALLAH..
tetapkanlah hatiku..
teguhkanlah pendirianku..
sehingga ak tidak mudah goyah dengan bisikan2 atau godaan2 yg mengajakku melakukan perkara yang engkau tdk sukai..
kuatkanlah imanku supaya ak tidak lagi kembali ke jalan yg engkau murkai yaALLAH..
bantulah daku..hambaMu yg lemah ini yaALLAh..

kuserahkan segala urusan jodohku pertemuanku hanya padaMU..
sesungguhnya Engkau lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untukku..
dan Engkau jualah yang mengatur segalanya..

Monday, December 12, 2011

kata-kata Allah itu benar

Salam blog..

Hari ni sy blajar pasal intersex..

Seronok..

Actually, ayat dalam quran yg menyebutkan;

لرِّجَالُ قَوَّامُوْنَ عَلَى النِّسَاءِI

“Para lelaki adalah Qowwam bagi para wanita …”QS an Nisa’: 34.

telah dibuktikan dari penciptaan genetic lagi yg menentukan sama ada bayi yg dikandung itu baby boy or baby girl.

Sebabnya , chromosome Y yg menentukan sama ada bayi tersebut akn ada testis or ovary..

Sebabnya dalam chromosome Y ada gene yg dipanggil testicular determining factor yg akan menetukan development of testis.

So the rule untuk tentukan bayi itu laki or perempuan is the presence of chromosome Y..

So bila ade chromosome Y those babies will develop testis,

Then the testis will produce testosterone and Mullerian Duct Regression Factor(MDRF)

Testosterone will stimulate Wolfian Duct to develop men’s internal and external genitalia.

While MDRF will inhibit development of uterus,fallopian tube and upper 2/3 of vagina.

So jadilah bayi tu lelaki after 6 weeks of gestation.

Begitulah sebaliknya, in absence of Y chromosomes,

The testis will not be developed..so there is no production of testosterone and MDRF

So the baby will have ovary,fallopian tube,uterus and upper 2/3 of vagina..hee

That’s why even dlm genetic ‘ar-rijal qowwaamuun ‘ala nisaa’

Because yg determine sex is chromosome Y.not X.

Tp jgn salahguna ayt Quran untk alasan menindas kaum wanita ok?..

Islam ade garis panduannya. Right?

Jom tgk cite house – pasal abnormality in development of sex:MORRIS SYNDROME

This woman actually is a man!

Thursday, December 8, 2011

i wish i could perform well today :(


siyesly,i felt really really bad after done with my presentation today..
off course i've put so much effort on preparing it..
however..the outcome didn't reach my expectation..

"104..ur presentation did attract me,
u have ur objective,
u have ur conclusion,
u arrange ur presentation well..
u manage ur time wisely
but there's sumthnig lacking..
u didn't have much confident..
u'r hesitating to express ur word..
why did u hesitate?..
u shuld have more courage..
confident with urself..
body language..bla..bla..
eye contact so and so and so."
x ingat da ckgu bebel ape ..byk sgt.

hurm..ni semua sebab gelabah..
hilang abes benda yang nk di cakap ms kt depan.
:(:(:(
just tawakkal okey?
harap2 prof ahmad fawzy galal tu murah hati dgn markah..
amiin ya Rabb

-inferiority complexkah?-




Tuesday, December 6, 2011

they are so cute!


siyes!.newly born baby kt sini are really cute!
putih2..comel2..
waaa..nk anak mcm ni jgak bole?
wondering..hahah:p


hr ni blajar endometriosis.
bila baca dlm buku tntang mechanism of endometriosis.
wahh..subhanallah..
ada reason islam larang intercourse during menses.
sebabnya..salah satu mechanism of endometriosis is 'menstrual regurge theory'
so salah satu predisposing factor untk regurge is manipulation during menses
and salah satu manipulation is coitus during menstrual period.
hurm..tw x Allah syg kamu?
tw x every larangan dlm islam has a reason behind?
off course endometriosis is a benign condition
tp the symptoms of endometriosis are very serious ( infertility and pain )
see ALLAH syg hambnya :)

hurm..posting o&g dh nk abes..
exam dh nk dekat..
tp x banyak pn bnda yg ada kt dlm kepala.
~haih~
'ape yg ko dh buat dgn ms free ko eh?'
main je banyak..haha
k blog gtg.tata

Sunday, December 4, 2011

termenung.


lepas solat hari ni,
saya termenung,
5 kali waktu solat 17 kali baca surah al-fatihah,
17 kali doa ini dibacakan:
إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ
ٱهْدِنَا ٱلصِّرَ ٰط ٱلْمُسْتَقِيمَ
"Engkaulah sahaja (Ya Allah) Yang Kami sembah, dan kepada Engkaulah sahaja kami memohon pertolongan"
"Tunjukilah kami jalan yang lurus"
tetapi adakah hati ini ikhlas memohon padaNya?
tiap2 hari,dosa buat jugak.
Dia dh tunjuk jalan yg lurus,
tapi kenapa masih lagi pilih jalan yg x betul?
asal ikut hawa nafsu sangat?
O' my Lord please dun let me go astray.
Engkau tahu ak hamba Mu yang lemah ya Allah,
kuatkanlah hatiku untuk lawan hawa nafsuku.

Allahumma ya muqallibal qulub, thabbit qulubana ‘ala deenik



Thursday, December 1, 2011

i'm masquerading.



"Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad) kepada orang-orang lelaki yang beriman supaya mereka menyekat pandangan mereka (daripada memandang yang haram) dan memelihara kehormatan mereka. Yang demikian itu lebih suci bagi mereka; sesungguhnya Allah Amat Mendalam PengetahuanNya tentang apa yang mereka kerjakan. Dan katakanlah kepada perempuan-perempuan yang beriman supaya menyekat pandangan mereka (daripada memandang yang haram) dan memelihara kehormatan mereka dan janganlah mereka memperlihatkan perhiasan tubuh mereka...." (Surah An-Nur : 30-31)
  1. Wanita yang taat pada suaminya, semua ikan-ikan di laut, burung di udara, malaikat di langit, matahari dan bulan, semuanya beristighfar baginya selama dia taat kepada suaminya dan rekannya (serta menjaga sholat dan puasanya).
  2. Aisyah r.a. berkata, “Aku bertanya pada rasulullah SAW, siapakah yang lebih besar haknya terhadap wanita?” Jawab baginda, “suaminya.” “Siapa pula berhak terhadap lelaki?” jawab Rasulullah SAW, “Ibunya.”
  3. Perempuan apabila sholat lima waktu, puasa di bulan Ramadhan, memelihara kehormatannya, serta taat pada suaminya, masuklah dia dari pintu surga mana saja yang dia kehendaki
saya mahu jadi wanita solehah!


Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Thursday, November 10, 2011

ohh exam!





untk elakkan diri dr laptop.sy prefer stdy ats katil.haha

exam is a round da corner!!
study la wey..
smlm ms talk i medic Dr. Hatta remind us to study passionat
ely..
agk ssh act nk stdy with passion ..
tp bila ade visi and misi..iALLAH boley..

ikhlaskan diri anda ok.

fighting!!
sebakul kain yg perlu dilipat.after exam yerk.:p

Saturday, October 29, 2011

'a bad doctor is a criminal';dr'ala'

logic x kata2 prof 'ala?
he gave us a clinical scenario

an infant 8month old coming to you with high fever and difficulty in feeding..
the physician on duty prescribe the child with NSAID to treat the fever..
later on the condition of child become worse..
and he was suffering from acute renal failure..
-so betol la kan..a bad doctor is a criminal-

klu doctor yg excellent..
definitely he will think of infection..
logic la..infant 8 month having high fever and difficulty on feeding..
wat's common is common..
mybe that child having pneumonia ke gastroenteritis ke..
tp maybe jgak viral infection..

pengajaran: ambk history of the patient elok2,do thorough clinical examintion,and order proper investigation based on suspicion
jgn sesuka hati prescribe ubat yg mungkin is nephrotoxic..
in the end u will be a criminal..


Wednesday, October 26, 2011

hati yang sakit,lesu,lemah,rosak..

Hidup adalah putaran roda. Melewati hari-hari yang dilalui adakalanya menyebabkan kita begitu ghairah menunggang bersama putaran roda kehidupan,sehingga kadang-kadang, kita terlalu sibuk menguruskan hal-hal semasa tanpa sedar ke sana ke mari sedang membawa sekeping hati yang sedang parah kesakitan.

Inilah resmi hidup manusia.

Adakala hati terasa begitu mudah untuk menerima dan melaksanakan kebaikan, dan dalam satu masa lain pula, hati terasa berat untuk mengunjugi kelas-kelas ilmu. Terasa bosan dengan nasihat dan mauizhah hasanah..terasa lesu dari melakukan kebajikan dan dakwah, malah hati makin rindu dan puas dengan layanan nafsu yang buas.

Bagaimana hati menjadi parah sebegini?

Bicara tentang seketul darah bernama HATI. Peranannya kita semua sedari; andai baik dan solehnya hati maka amal dan akhlak serta keseluruhannya akan tampak manis dan berseri. Sebaliknya pula jikalau hati sedang membengkak nan pedih, seluruh pekerti akan rosak dek tempias yang terpalit secara zahir. Kerana ini, hati adalah tumpuan utama untuk diseriusi oleh hamba-hamba yang berjanji untuk menempuh jalan menuju Illahi.

Hati mungkin sahaja menjadi sakit dan pedih tanpa kita sedari. Seperti ikan yang terdampar dari jauh dari halaman sendiri, begitulah jua hati yang sakit- ibaratnya sudah tinggal nyawa-nyawa ikan. Hati yang sakit tidak lagi terasa perit di kala melakukan maksiat, tidak lagi merasai nikmat dalam beribadah..jauh berbeza dengan hati yang hidup, yang pasti merasa terseksa setiap kali melakukan perkara yang dikutuk.

Adakalanya pemilik hati yang sakit dapat merasai simptom-simptomnya namun untuk berusaha mengubatinya terasa amat pahit untuk dicuba. Sementelah melayani kerenah hati yang sakit jauh lebih enak dan manis ditemani nafsu yang membuak-buak.

Namun, hati-hati wahai sahabat!

Barangkali hati yang sudah terlalu lama kepedihan, lama-lama mungkin akan mati dalam kegelapan jauh sungguh dari Tuhan, malah barangkali mampu membuatkan pemiliknya tidak lagi mengenali siapakah Rabbnya. Amal ibadah mungkin ditinggalkan, berjalan di dunia bersama hawa dan nafsu, sedang kemurkaan Allah dijanjikan untuk mereka. Nauzubillah min zalik…

Justeru itu, apabila kita di uji dengan penyakit hati, seeloknya kita cepat-cepat mencari terapinya. Jangan terus biarkan diri terleka dan dahaga. Isikanlah dengan nutrisi-nutrisi yang dapat menghidupkannya kembali.

Kata seorang soleh, amatlah menghairankan manusia itu, mereka menangisi orang yang mati jasadnya sedang tidak menangisi orang yang mati hatinya. Padahal keadaan ini lebih berbahaya

Maka, langkah-langkahurgensi perlu diambil, supaya tidak terus melarat dan sengsara.

Langkah paling awal adalah dengan kembali kepada Allah.

Sungguh Al-Quran dan zikir itu adalah sebaik-baik penyembuh dan pelembut hati.

Kata ibn taimiyyah, Zikir bagi hati ibarat air bagi ikan. Apa jadinya bila ikan dikeluarkan daripada air?

Zikrullah adalah makanan pokok bagi hati dan ruh. Jikalau lama hati menyepi daripada menyebut nama Allah lama kelamaan syaitan akan lebih mudah untuk melemahkan diri. Akhirnya penyakit hati bersarang dalam diri.

Abu Musa Al-Asyariy meriwayatkan, Rasulullah bersabda;

Perumpamaan orang yang berzikir dengan orang yang tidak berzikir adalah seperti orang yang hidup dengan orang yang mati. HR Bukhari

Istighfar yang muncul dari hati yang benar-benar menyesali dosa adalah rawatan hati yang benar-benar mujarab. Memohon maghfirah dan keampunan dari Allah dapat merendahkan hati serta meleburkan air mata yang sekian lama membeku.

Dan tidak cukup dengan itu, sentiasalah berdoa agar dipelihara daripada penyakit hati yang berkali-kali melanda diri.

Sesungguhnya, tiadalah penawar yang lebih baik untuk merawat hati yang parah melainkan kembali mengingati Allah. Bila mana terasa penat dan lemah, terus-terusanlah mengingati Allah dalam setiap amal dan perbuatan. Semoga dengan hati yang sihat bercahaya diterangi iman, stamina akan bertambah untuk terus beribadah dan beramal. Sungguh, kekuatan itu lahir dari dalam, dari seketul daging yang akan menjana seluruh tubuhnya; yakni al-Qalb.Link

http://ismamesir.com/v2/2010/06/hati-yang-sedang-parah/

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

dr.'ala'..u'r the best prof i've ever met!

hari yg ditakuti student unit endocrinology pd setiap mggu akhirnya tiba..
'SELASA!!'
hari clinical round yg menggerunkan bg kami..
pg tu part of us taking history and i was the one who responsible to do clinical examination..
plus hr tu dpt atypical case..
girl,12yo dgn history of fever ,athralgia, back pain and fatigue for 2 months..
when i examined her..i've found out there were purpura on her chest and lower limb and ecchymotic patches around her extremeties..
off course wat's coming in our mind is leukemia..
but there was no splenomegaly,hepatomegaly..(not necessarily present right?)
so we do dif diagnosis and try to exclude anythng which are not possible to narrow down our doagnosis.

however..even we think we 've done our best before prof 'ala come..
we're still lacking in his eyes..huhu..
daydreaming la..
memang patot kna hentam pon..
because we didn't follow the protocols that he taught us..
plus..knowledge pon x lah byk sgt..sbb kurang membaca kan?:p
habes sem..start sem baru dh lupa ape yg blajar ms sem lama..
nk kata nyanyuk..umo muda lg..
nk jd dktor ke mcm ni?haih~

ape yg dr.'ala ajar..
the way he torture us..the way he gave us pressure..
automatically made us thinking in active way..
how to find out the clue from every case,do diffrential diagnosis well and try to narrow the field of diagnosis and then do appropriate investigation to reach the final diagnosis..
that's the way the real doc is thinking..huhu
bkn sbb still student..so stdy2..tnpa nk prktik mcm mn nk gna bla face clinical scenario in the future..

kamu dh fifth year ok?xde ms nk main2 dh..

Monday, September 19, 2011

ho oh ho

salam blog..lama x menjengukk.hehe

hari ni..after stalking situ sini..

sy terbaca satu article yg agak menarik..dan boleh dibuat pengajaran untk bakal2 doktor


simonsim.wordpress.com

May 27, 2011

here are few examples of the instant noodle house officers that i have met..

# case 1

patient in hypovolemia with hypotension..

MO: pls do fluid resuscitation..

HO doesn’t know what fluid resuscitation is, and malu (shy shy la) to ask the MO.. but he remembers resuscitation is something to do with CPR (cadiopulmonary resuscitation).. so he performs chest compression in a CONSCIOUS patient, causing respiratory distress to the patient, and the patient is looking at him in one kind.. and the smokes come out from the MO’s head..

deserved for HO paling tukul award.. (this HO graduated from Russia, recipient of scholarship from a famous local body)..

# case 2

vital signs stable on a dead body..

the HO did his evening round in the acute bay.. one of the patients was intubated due to head injury.. the family members told him the body became stiff 2 hours ago.. but the monitor still showing pulse rate (patient on ionotropes).. so he documented “patient GCS remains poor, vital signs stable, continue the same management”.. huh..????? how to become a doctor even he/she can’t even differentiate between LIFE and DEATH..????? why do they want to spend the parents and tax payers money to study medicine but the medical knowledge is lousier than a layman..?????

deserved for HO otak ketam award.. (again, this is another HO graduated from Russia)..

# case 3

for MO to resus patient..

i was attending a patient in the female surgical ward..

suddenly another patient in the same ward collapsed and desaturated.. the nurses were shouting and called the surgical house officer who was sitting at the counter doing nothing at that time to attend the patient.. he walked slowly to the bed of that patient but did not examine the patient, he just pointed his finger toward me “neh, doktor dekat sana”.. huh????? what type of houseman is this..????? asking a MO to attend a collapsed patient without examining and doing the initial resuscitation works..?????

deserved for HO ubi kentang award.. (this HO graduated from a local public university, one of the three oldest medical schools in this country)..

# case 4

for MO to insert branula..

during my housemanship time in 2006, when we have problem in inserting a branula, we NEVER called our MO for help (except for neonates).. we would call our senior houseman (most of the time, the captain) to help us to insert the branula.. during my second housemanship posting, i started to insert the femoral line and i did my toes amputation for diabetic patients ALONE while my MO was sleeping the whole night.. i did my first peritoneal dialysis together with my houseman friends without the presence of our MO when i was in the medical posting.. but now, what types of procedures that a houseman can perform..???

recently, during my busy oncall day, suddenly the nurse called me up “doktor, tolong insert branula, houseman dah cuba 2 kali tapi tak dapat”.. huh??? why can’t the houseman call me directly if he/she cannot get the line?? just left the patient and ordered the nurse to call me..?? what tpye of attitude is this..?? no responsibility at all.. when i went to see the patient, i found the vein of the patient was BIGGER than the vein on the manikin..!!!!! how could the HO fail to insert a line into such a huge vein..?????

deserved for HO kurang asam garam award.. (this HO also graduated from a local public university)..

# case 5

in the past, we houseman worked like lembu and donkey.. there was no time for us to sit and rest.. the MO just sat over the counter and monitored what we were doing.. we used to offer ourselves to assist the MO in doing any bedside procedures..

nowadays, the house officers are sitting over the counter and “observing” the MO doing their job.. no greetings, no offer, no initiative to learn..

deserved for HO kurang upaya fizikal award..

# case 6

houseman manja..

a female houseman is a little bit slow in doing her job and her medical knowledge is very poor.. but she likes to come to work late, and goes back home early.. every morning during the ward round, one of the surgeons likes to ask her a lot of questions to test her medical knowlege.. and most of the time she can’t answer.. one day, suddenly the surgeon receives a phone call when he is doing surgery “i’m the mother of @#$%, please stop asking my daughter any questions, or i will make a complain to the state health director..” huh?? like this also can arr..???

deserved for HO lampin pasti tak bocor award.. (this HO graduated from a local private medical school)..

so, is it really a houseman’s life so stressful..?? to me, YES in the past few years.. but NO in these days.. i don’t understand why the HO nowadays like to complain, small small things also complain, even language barrier with patients also become an issue to them..

in my opinion, these HO are too pampered by parents, not competent in clinical skills, too ego, and not taking positive attitude and initiative to improve themselves.. today, there are so many house officers in the ward compared to few years back, the workloads are markedly reduced.. so what are they complaining about..??? the stressfulness is mainly due to their incompetency to function as a house officer.. (of course there are still a lot of hard working, capable and reliable house officers around, but the numbers are not many now)..


advice: don’t become a doctor just because of the title “doctor”, or one may end up like them..

Saturday, August 20, 2011

i felt lost!

i felt lost...
dalam dunia sndiri..
dah x knal diri sendiri dh..
apa yg sy mahu?
apa yg sy tgh buat ni?
semua rs mcm x kna..
kenapa..kenapaaa...kenapaaaa..??
yaALLAH bimbinglah ak ke jalan Mu yg benar..
ke jalan Mu yg lurus..

ramadhan sudah mahu berlabuh tirai..
tp apa yg sy dpt untk bln ramadhan pnuh barakah ini?
i felt like i've got nothing..

Sunday, August 7, 2011

syukur

apa yg ada jrg disyukuri...
apa yg tiada sering di risaukn...
nikmat yg dikecap baru kan terasa...
bila hilang apa yg diberi...
timbul rs jemu bila sudah di dlm genggaman...
dunia ibarat air laut...
diminum hanya menambah haus...
nafsu bagaikn fatamorgana...
di padang pasir...
panas yg membahang disangka air...
dunia dan nafsu bagai byg2...
dilihat ada...
ditangkap hilang...


Tuesday, August 2, 2011

saya rasa..

saya rasa kan..
saya dh berjaya buang smua yg m'belenggu hati sy selama ni..
yeah..free..
ya hati sy free..:D

" just put ur trust in the Ever living ONE who Dies Not "

-mengharapkn Ramdhan kali ni penuh mkna..
agr dpt ku lalui dgn sempurna-

++kali ni puasa jauh dr family++
++hurm..nk make ike tuko++


Saturday, July 23, 2011

subhanallah..

ovulation - live

berat.....
seperti ada belenggu di anggota yang empat........
cuma tercegat.....
sesekali wajah pucat....
jerit sukma teramat kuat.....
sepertinya terjerat dalam jerat......
tidak kekanan atau kiri..
atau kedepan...atau kebelakang...
ada sekat....
ke dalam jua....
semuanya keparat....
mengharap pada Sang Penyelamat....
harus kuat.....

Monday, July 11, 2011

doa saidina UMAR Al-Khattab

doa Saidina Umar R.A:
'yaALLAH seperti Engkau tahu ak ni berwatak keras.
oleh kerana itu lunakkanlah hatiku,
aku ni LEMAH yaALLAH,,
maka kuatkanlah ak.
aku ni kikir yaAllah ,
maka jadikankah ak hambaMu yg pengasih ,pemurah dan dermawan."
amiin

muga dpt amalkn doa tersbut.


Wednesday, June 29, 2011

ohh Tuhan


Ku musafir ke pelusuk dunia
Memerhatikan gelagat manusia
Ada yang gembira hingga terlupa
Ada yang berduka tetapi gembira

Terasa lelah menempuh jalanan beronak duri
Kekadang sesat tanpa haluan
Sehingga punca hilang di mata
Kuturutkan jua hati yang buta
Kupasrahkan padaMu Tuhan
Segala yang akan berlaku
Kerana Engkaulah menentu segala
Menciptakan dunia penuh pancaroba


Tak terdaya rasanya kaki melangkah
Kau pimpinlah langkahku Tuhan
Agar tidakku kesesatan dari jalan SyurgaMu yang diidamkan
Kerana tidakku terdaya menahan seksa neraka
Tidak pula layakku ke syurga


Ku hanya hamba yang diciptakan dengan kelemahan
Sering daku terlupa sering jua daku terleka
Dengan nikmatMu yang melimpah didepan mata...

Thursday, June 9, 2011

suratan atau kebetulan?


kadang2 kita berdoa untk kuat,
tapi byk pulak dugaan yg mendatang,
kadang2 kita minta cerdik,
tapi masalh pulak yg bertandang,
kadang2 kita minta kebahagiaan,
tapi huru hara pulak menjelang..

tp kalu pikir dalam2..
dugaan membuatkn kita jd lebih kuat,
masalah menjadikan kita berfikir,
huru hara pula menjadikan kita tabah..
betol x?

-sesungguhnya Allah maha pengasih lagi maha Penyayang-


Sunday, June 5, 2011

untk adk-adk kt umah


''Ini termasuk kurniaanku untk mengujiku apakah ak bersyukur
atau mengingkari (akn nikmat-Nya),
dan barangsiapa yg bersyukur maka sesungguhnya dia bersyukur
untk (kebaikan) dirinya sendiri
dan barangsiapa yg ingkar,
maka sesungguhnya Tuhanku Maha Kaya Lagi Maha Mulia"

vid ats sy mahu tujukn untk adk2 kt umah..
hayati dan fahami..

untk tikah dan idah..
STPM dh nk dkat kn?
anggp ni adalah last chance sbg penentu ms dpn nnti..
smua mahu msk U kn?
so,
korbankn dlu bnda2 yang boleh menghalang untk capai cita2 k..
k.ma xleh nk tlg byk..
cuma bole bg nasehat jah..
then up to korang..
pikirlah sndiri untk kebaikan diri sndiri..
untk ms depan diri sendiri..
ingt ma abh..
pengorbanan mereka untk besarkn kita smua..

- dan sebaik-baik ibadah adalah menanti kemudahan dgn SABAR-



Saturday, June 4, 2011

what doesn't doesn't



As time goes on, you’ll understand.
What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t
Time solves most things.
And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.


Thursday, June 2, 2011

lesson for today..'IKHLASKAN hati'

alhamdulillah..hari ini Allah ajar saya satu lagi lesson in life..
iaitu..ikhlasknlah hati dlm smua hal termasuklah berkawan..
subhanallah..
Allah itu maha halus kn?
klu sblm ni..
sy tertanya2..kenapa sy mcm ni?
knp hati sy ada perasaan mcm ni?
tp hari ini ALLAH bg sy tarbiyah melalui kwn2..
sy je suka ambk hati dgn bnda kecik..
kwn2 xpnah kot ada prasaan mcm tu..
instead diorang cuba untk memahami sy..
yaALLAH..hinanya diri ini..
lemahnya diri ini..


speechless ♥♥

grupmat int. med

grupmate surgery

O & G with Dr.Sheriff mustaffa


orthopedic

AJK makanan SC gabungan


~uhibbukunna fillah~

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

kerna mulot hati binasa


adakah sy sgt sensitif lately?
klu ade slh org sket or org t'kasar bhs sket or org mcm pndng rndah kt sy.
sy akn trasa..tp sy pendam..senyap je..
buat2 sy x ambk hati.
bila pikir balik..
mcm la sy x pnah wt org trasa kn?
mybe org pn mcm tu gk ngn sy.
just pendam n ignore je.

anyway..sy cuba muhasabah balik..
mungkin sy pn tak jaga tutur kata sy,tngkah laku sy ngn kekwn..
mungkin org lain pn pnah makan hati ngn sy.
mcm pepatah cina 'satu jari telunjuk tuju kt org lain tp 3 jari t'tuju ke arah kita'kn?

so..HATI ,
jom maafkn org2 tesebut k..
dgn harapan Allah akn buka pntu hati mereka untk maafkn sy jugak..
dan dgn harapan ukhuwah yg t'bina mendapat keredhaan Allah
bila saling maaf memaafi..

"YaAllah JAUHILAH kami dari sifat prasangka buruk terhadap org lain"

Thursday, May 26, 2011

take home massages

case 1
female pt. ,35 years old , married , live in 'somewhere in countryside of alex',admitted on 22/o5/11

c/o - low back pain since 2 months
- also tingling in the leg which is more on the left side
-sciatica

present hx
- condition started 2 months ago as she try to lift heavy object.
the pain was like' toothache'
it was progressing,radiating to the thigh and leg.
aggravated by bending forward and backward and relief a little as she standing straight and have bed rest in flex position.
she also claimed that when she woke up in the morning from sleep she can't walk on her foot as she felt severe pain

past hx
she used to work as labourer and have to lift cement weight 50kg on her back and shoulder everyday.

she onced felt pain on her lower back.
see doctor and the doc prescribed her NSAIDS and the pain subsided(wat an ignorance doc,knp x suh wt at least Xray?)
after long time she felt pain on her stomach

no dm,no ht,no bilharziasis,no virus c....

no special habit

no similar condition in her family member

examnitaion done
result -
can't sit and stand comfortably
breast not on the same level
flattening of cervical lordosis
lateral deviation of lumbar vertebrae to the left
pelvis not on the same level
can't walk on tip toe or on the heel
rasing leg test - the angle of extension diminished

x ray - disc space widen
mri - 'black disc' or disc prolapse

moral of the story:
nerve root compression - present with refer pain..
so kna ingt dermatomes of LL ok?

case 2
male,23 years old,single
c/o pain in knee joint
hx - chronic sinusitis and take NSAIDs

x-ray- avascular necrosis head of femur(d.t chronic intake of NSAIDs)

--> pt come with knee pain or lumbar region pain - should alway suspect sumthing's wrong with hip joint

case 3
male child, 6 years old
pain on upper tibia
give history of fever and fall

--> always suspect acute osteomyelitis in child if pt give those type of complaints till proved otherwise


ALERT!..SAY NO TO IGNORANCE!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

anat+ortho


salam blog..
sbb hr ni agk tensen..
jari jemari rs nk menulis..
td agk sdeyh bila blajar psl trauma of lower limb..
anatomy zero...
hanya 1% je yg ade dlm kepala..
yg lain pergi mengglkn kepala sy :(

so sumthing's crossing my mind now..
will i be able to be at least a gud doctor i the future?
am i qualified enough or fit enough to be a doctor?

anyhow..iALLAh..
there are chances to improve yourself k?
dun ever give up!
ALLAH x ska org yg 'putus asa dgn rahmatnya..
"ujin tu rahmat kn?"

ade 2 thn lg kn?
jgn sia-siakn peluang anda ok?

Thursday, May 5, 2011

tanggungjawab

salam blog..lama x mnjenguk..
hr ni rs nk menulis..

bila pk psl tnggungjwb..
banyak actually tnggngjwb yg x terlaksana dgn baik..

tnggungjwb sbg hambaNya..
sbg anak..
sbg kakak..
sbg student..
in every part of my duty in life..
did i play my role very well?

muhasabah balik..
insyaALLAH..peluang msh ada untk membaiki diri..

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

all messed up

ujian mematangkn kehidupan..
tetapi..adakah saya matang menghadapi ujian2 tersebut?

jiwa..
akn tenang bila dekat dgn penciptanya..
bila jiwa tidak tenang..
adakah jiwa ini telah berada jauh dgn Penciptanya?

sedeyh .. sayu.. kecewa..
adakah perasaan sebegini ptot ada jika seorg hmba itu seorg yg penyabar?
sabar dan redha menghadapi segala ujian dariNYA?

"setiap bencana yg menImpa di bumi dan yg menimpa dirimu sendiri semunya t'tulis dlm kitab (LUH MAHFUZ) sebelum kami mewujudkannya.sugguh yg demikian itu mudah bg ALLAH..
Agar kamu tdk bersedih hati t'hadap apa yg diberikn-Nya kpdmu. Dan ALLAH tdk menyukai org yg smbong dan m'banggakn diri,"
(al-Hadid ayt 22-23)

jgn bersedih bila diuji..
instead ingtlah ALLAH byk2..ok?

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

selamat hari lahir ya RASULULLAH..habbiballah..

sempena maulidur rasul..jom kita selawat byk2 ke atas junjungan besar Nabi Muhammad S.A.W.
(especially wanita..selawatlah byk2 untk Nabi kita tanda terima kasih kita kerana bagindalah yg mengangkat martabat wanita)

Alhamdulillah..tahun ini sy dpt merasa sambutan maulidur rasul di Mlaysia..
klu kt Mesir..byk program yg akn di atur oeh PCI untk smbutan maulidur Rasul..
tp kt rumah xde program mcm kt Mesir
hanya berada di rumah..tgk rancangan2 tv yg berkait dgn maulidur rasul..
Alhamdulillah nasib baiklah ada rncangan halaqah
tajuk Hlaqah malam ni best sgt2 iaitu 'wasiat terakhir nabi'
sgt menyentuh hati sy dan adk2..
sama2 dk dpn tv..sama2 hayati..

ni copy paste from iluvislam

Khutbah ini disampaikan pada 9hb Zulhijjah, tahun 10 Hijriah di Lembah Uranah, Gunung Arafah :

"Wahai manusia, dengarlah baik-baik apa yang hendak kukatakan, Aku tidak mengetahui apakah aku dapat bertemu lagi dengan kamu semua selepas tahun ini. Oleh itu dengarlah dengan telti kata-kataku ini dan sampaikanlah ia kepada orang-orang yang tidak dapat hadir disini pada hari ini.

Wahai manusia, sepertimana kamu menganggap bulan ini dan Kota ini sebagai suci, maka anggaplah jiwa dan harta setiap orang Muslim sebagai amanah suci.Kembalikan harta yang diamanahkan kepada kamu kepada pemiliknya yang berhak.Janganlah kamu sakiti sesiapapun agar orang lain tidak menyakiti kami lagi. Ingatlah bahawa sesungguhnya, kamu akan menemui Tuhan kamu dan Dia pasti membuat perhitungan diatas segala amalan kamu. Allah telah mengharamkan riba, oleh itu segala urusan yang melibatkan riba dibatalkan sekarang.

Berwaspadalah terhadap syaitan demi keselamatan agama kamu. Dia telah berputus asa untuk menyesatkan kamu dalam perkara-perkara besar, maka berjaga-jagalah supaya kamu tidak mengikuti dalam perkara-perkara kecil.

Wahai Manusia Sebagaimana kamu mempunyai hak atas isteri kamu mereka juga mempunyai hak di atas kamu. Sekiranya mereka menyempurnakan hak mereka keatas kamu, maka mereka, juga berhak untuk diberi makan dan pakaian dalam Susana kasih sayang. Layanilah wanita-wanita kamu dengan baik dan berlemah-lembutlah terhadap mereka kerana sesungguhnya mereka adalah teman dan pembantu kamu yang setia. Dan hak kamu atas mereka ialah mereka sama sekali tidak boleh memasukkan orang yang kamu tidak sukai kedalam rumah kamu dan dilarang melakukan zina.

Wahai Manusia, dengarlah bersungguh-sungguh kata-kataku ini, sembahlah Allah, dirikanlah sembahyang lima kali sehari, berpuasalah di bulan Ramadhan, dan tunaikankanlah zakat dari harta kekayaan kamu. Kerjakanlah Ibadah Haji sekiranya kamu mampu. Ketahui bahawa setiap Muslim adalah saudara kepada Muslim yang lain. Kamu semua adalah sama; tidak seorang pun yang lebih mulia dari yang lainnya kecuali dalam Taqwa dan beramal saleh.

Ingatlah, bahawa, kamu akan menghadap Allah pada suatu hari untuk dipertanggung jawabkan diatas segala apa yang telah kamu kerjakan. Oleh itu Awasilah agar jangan sekali-kali kamu terkeluar dari landasan kebenaran selepas ketiadaaku.

Wahai Manusia, tidak ada lagi Nabi atau Rasul yang akan datang selepasku dan tidak akan ada lain agama baru. Oleh itu wahai manusia, nilailah dengan betul dan fahamilah kata-kataku yang telah aku sampaikan kepada kamu. Sesungguhnya aku tinggalkan kepada kamu dua perkara yang sekiranya kamu berpegang teguh dan mengikuti kedua-duanya, necaya kamu tidak akan tersesat selama-lamanya. Itulah ALQURAN dan SUNNAHKU.

Hendaklah orang-orang yang mendengar ucapanku, menyampaikan pula kepada orang lain. Semoga yang terakhir lebih memahami kata-kataku dari mereka yang terus mendengar dariku. Saksikanlah Ya Allah, bahawasanya telah aku sampaikan risalahMu kepada hamba-hambaMU.



Thursday, January 27, 2011

farewell party~hepatobiliary unit..

Proffesor2 dan Resident2
Dr.Said Kayal, Head of Department

Dr. Usama Deeb (he want us to call him Usama breast)subspecialty in breast surgery


pejam celik pejam celik..
dh 8 mggu kami berada di unit pembedahan hati dan hempedu(hepatobiliary surgery unit)..
terasa berat hati untk mengglkn prof2 and doc2 yg bertungkus lumus mengajar kami dan melayan kerenah kami spnjng 8 mggu tesebut..
semakin hari semakin terasa layanan yg profesor dan doctor resident berikan terlalu istimewa berbnding dgn pelajar2 arab yg lain..
mereka tdk lokek dgn ilmu dan pengalamn mereka..
mereka sggup ulang byk kali if kitorang tak phm sesuatu tajuk..
kagum dgn semangat dan ketekunan mereka dan comitment mereka dgn kerja mereka..
even gaji doc kt egypt xdelah lumayan berbnding dgn doc m'sia..
(gaji specialist dlm LE1,100 je..tu specialist..klu doc HO or MO..xsmpai 1000 kot)
tp mereka pntingkn ilmu dr segala-galanya.
sy tekejut bila tgk the most skillful surgeon in our departmen gna kereta yg xlah berapa mewah..
humble je kn?
even most of our profs graduated from oversea..
and ade pengalamn keja di negara yg maju..
tp sbb semangt patriotik dan semangt untk tlg rkyat negara sndiri..
mereka balik berkhidmat untk negara sndiri..
kagum sgt..
plus diorg hafal Quran and ambik dalil Quran untk aplikasikn dlm ilmu medic..
sy rs mereka sgt hebat..
boleh ke sy jd hebat mcm diorg?

iAllah..




Wednesday, January 26, 2011

macho ke mcm tu?

sy tertarik bila terbaca cerita ni..

beruntunglah sesapa yg cuba mempraktikkan sunnah Rasulullah S.A.W

so the story begins..


Last week my sister called. She has been studying abroad since summer began, so naturally I was thrilled to hear from her. After hearing how she was, I asked about her new home. With her living in a Muslim country, I felt assured that everything would be fine. For that reason, what she described next was a complete shock. She began to describe a place where a girl can hardly leave her house without being verbally harassed by men walking by. She said that the catcalling was no longer the exception; it had become the rule. Then she told me about a Muslim girl she knew. The girl was riding in a taxi and when she arrived at her stop, she handed the driver his money. In many of these countries there are no strict meters, and since the fare is somewhat arbitrary, the driver became angry. Eventually the altercation escalated to such a degree that the driver grabbed the girl by the shoulders and began to shake her. At this, the girl became angry and insulted the driver. The driver then punched the young woman in the face.

At this point, I was extremely disturbed. But it was what my sister said next that was most devastating. Nearby, there was a group of men who saw what was happening, and rushed to the scene. Naturally they came to help the girl.


No. They stood and watched.


It was at this point in the story that I began to wonder. Suddenly I found myself questioning every definition of masculinity I had ever believed in. I wondered how a man — not one, but many — can stand and watch a woman be abused, and do absolutely nothing about it. It made me question what ideals define what it means to be a man in today’s society. Had the definition of masculinity become so distorted as to be reduced to just unbridled sex drive? Had the image of the ‘knight in shining armor’ really been replaced by visions of macho, catcalling boys in the street?

Most of all, it got me thinking about what it means to be a Muslim man today. I wondered if our dominate definitions as Muslims are really what they should be. Today, a man is expected to be stoic, unemotional, inexpressive, tough, and unbending. Physical aggression is glorified and emotional expressiveness ridiculed. I then decided to examine the epitome of what it means to be a man. I decided to look at the Prophet .

One of the most common definitions of manhood today is the lack of emotional expressiveness. It is almost universally believed that to cry is ‘unmanly’ and weak. And yet the Prophet described it very differently. When the Prophet was handed his daughter’s son who was dying, his eyes flooded with tears. His companion Sa`d then told him, “What is this, Prophet of God?” He said, “This is a mercy that the Almighty has made in the hearts of His servants. And surely God has mercy to the merciful ones among His servants.” [Bukhari]

But today, a man is not only expected to hide feelings of sadness, he is taught early on that even other emotions are not to be expressed. During the time of the Prophet , there were some men who believed the same. Once while a villager was present, Prophet Muhammad kissed his grandsons on the forehead. At that, the villager said with surprise, “I have ten children. I have never kissed any of them!” Prophet Muhammad looked at him and said, “He who does not have mercy will not have mercy upon him.” [Bukhari] In fact, with regards to showing affection, the Prophet was very clear. He said: “If a man loves his brother in faith, he should tell him that he loves him.”[Abu Dawud]

The Prophet used to also show a great deal of affection towards his wives. Aisha reported that the Prophet would only enjoy his meals when she would sit next to him. They would drink from one cup and he would watch where Aisha would place her lips on the cup so that he could place his lips on the exact position. He would eat from a bone after she would eat from it, placing his mouth where she had eaten. [Muslim] (wahh,..romanticnya Nabi kita kn?)

The Prophet used to also help around the house, contrary to another widely held myth of masculinity. Aisha reported, “The Prophet Muhammad used to stitch his clothes, milk the goats and help in the chores inside the house.” [Bukhari & Muslim] (memasak bkn keja bini je ok?)

But, perhaps one of the most common myths of what a man should be is the idea that a man should be ‘tough.’ Gentleness is widely considered only a feminine trait. And yet the Prophet Muhammad said: “Allah is gentle and loves gentleness. He gives for gentleness what He does not give for harshness, nor for anything else.” [Muslim] In another hadith, he says, “He who is deprived of gentleness is deprived of good.” [Muslim]

And yet so much of that gentleness has been lost from our modern definition of masculinity. It is frightening when a boy can consider it manly to sexually harass a woman on the street, but consider it no question of his manhood to stand and watch while a girl is being hit. It makes you wonder if maybe our image of what is ‘manly’ in fact resembles a Hollywood gangster more than it does our beloved Prophet.